Friday, December 17, 2010
MOHOH posted a video production that tells the story of 3 young LDS guys and their stories. I was very touched by it.
Sometimes I wish I were one of those guys and that I had the courage when I was younger to step up and out as they have done. I think my younger years might have been happier. I'm so glad that they have a support group and have the opportunity to make the choice. Things were so much different when I was younger. Many of us older MOHOs never even considered the option of choosing to opt out of the Mormon path even though it created frequent pain for us. We, or at least I, was convinced that I was the problem and in some perverse way believed that the only way to get better was to continue to be flogged in the Church. I can relate to those who hurt themselves in the name of repentance.
On the other hand, if I had come out when I was young I would have missed many precious relationships that I have today and would not have the 3 fantastic kids, supportive wife, and two beautiful grandsons (plus one on the way) that I enjoy today. Was it the right choose? For me, I think it was and I would not change it despite the floggings and other struggles.
One thing I've learned is that everyone's path is different and I believe each of those paths can be right for the one who chooses it. I think those who seek God can and will be led by Him down many individually tailored paths. We have a view of God that is much too narrow when we believe that there is only one way to live that pleases him. All we need to do is look at the wide variety of cultures in the world to know that God loves diversity and that none of them is fundamentaly wrong.
How can I believe this and also believe the Church is true? In my simple mind they are two different truths. I know the Church is true but I also know that God does not intend for everyone to be Mormon. The Church is not the Gospel and the Gospel is not the Church.