Just my rambling thoughts about being gay and Mormon

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I come from a long line of rebels

Some things I learned from doing family history research:

  • I come from a long line of rebels, risk takers, and independent thinkers
  • I come from amazing people who were willing to stand up for what they believed in and go against the conventions of their day
  • They were non conformists and embraced new ideas
  • They moved on and changed when they needed to.  It probably scared the shit out of them just as it does me sometimes to lean into an unknown future and take a leap of faith and hope.
  • They sometimes failed but were not defeated
  • They believed in themselves and in God more than they believed in any organization
  • They are now revered as faithful stalwarts by people who despise rebels and independent thinkers and who don't understand their own history.  These amazing ancestors would not recognize themselves in much of what is thought and said about them today.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Bishop anyone?

I was thinking today about the recent discussion with the Stake President (no I haven't heard anything back from him - but I've been away for a few weeks).  Anyway, I was thinking about how a few of the facts of history and doctrine I gave to him, which seemed pretty basic to me, seemed to catch him cold as if they were news.  Not until recently did I really consider the difficult position the Church puts on it's lay leaders.

The Church asks a lot of it's lay leaders, particularly in light of the fact that it does not share with them any more of the real facts of Church history, changed doctrines, and past actions than it does with the general membership.  They are expecting these guys to stand up in public in ignorance (some may say faith) and teach/defend the positions of the Church without all the facts. Is there such a thing as clergy abuse?  

Most of these guys who serve have no real knowledge of the inner workings of the church, the seamy details of some church actions, or the real truth about church history and doctrine.  I've thought for a while that the personal liability of serving as a church leader, particularly with the youth on camps, etc., is potentially high.  Maybe the risk of being used and abused by the corporate PR machine is even greater.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Out in Europe

I've been out of the country for the past 3 weeks doing the tourist thing in Europe.  We spent much of our time in southern Spain, along the Costa del Sol.  We had great food in outdoor cafes and soaked up the sun and culture. 

The Costa del Sol has been an area of gay resorts and clubs for decades so there were also other sights to see and enjoy.  

I enjoyed seeing the many gay couples going about there lives, shopping, and being tourists - something you don't see as often in Mormonville.  They weren't all beautiful and young like the guys in these photos. Many were older and frumpy like me but they seemed happy to be together.  It was a great trip ... now back to reality.